It's All Coming Back To Me Now

I just realized something...

I seem to be pushing people around me to do things that I wanna do, knowing damn well that they don't wanna do it and that I can't.

Example: Eating cheese baked rice. I would make people eat cheese bake rice because I long for cheese bake rice and I know I shouldn't be touching that evil goodness. Seeing them devour that cheese bake rice will somehow satisfy me. Weird, right?

My point is, just because I can't do something, I find it satisfying if someone else does it on my "behalf". 

I guess I should stop this. If that's my dream, I should go after it. Not send someone on my behalf. 

There, hope I made sense.