Not So 'Highlight' Of My Week

Since my last post was a week ago, here's a recap of what I've been up to throughout the week, if anyone cares :)

Monday...

The first thing I felt when I woke up was 'I dont wanna go to work!!!'. I remember having this exact same feeling many many many years ago (ie: during my kindergarten days). I dunno why the sudden strike tho. Felt so not motivated and just blah.

Tuesday...

Took a sick day off from work. That was how blah i felt. But in my defense, my neck was hurting like balls and I just couldn't take it anymore so I took off, went to the doctor's and got some medication to make me feel better. i do now, actually. Ohhh, wee early in the morning that day, there was this massive thunder lightning! Like super striking bright lightning and and a super loud (think gun shot, bomb explode) thunder that took place and it freaked me out!! I was pee-ing when that happened. Super terrified and I didnt go back to sleep after that. The sick day off came in handy.

Wednesday...

Had to face reality again with work. I'm beginning to be given more challenging work and i am scared. Scared of the stupid mistakes I will do and the loud scolding that will come after that. I know, people are meant to make mistakes (boss says so too) but when the mistake is done, sure will kena!! How like that? Yes, I am one who hates to be scolded but who doesn't? And I hate going to work in fear and dreading the whole day. I think i am more of someone who prefer to drive on a straight road without any obstacles.

Thursday...

Still felt like shit and not into it at all. Was beginning to doubt what I really wanted and...yeah. Nothing new.

Friday...

Still nothing new. Just more thoughts on my part and decided to start reconsidering. Still in the process of doing that.

Saturday...

REST AND RELAX!!! Tried macaroons for the first time. Didnt love it.

Sunday...

Made shepherd's pie for the first time from scratch!! The best highlight of my week, to be honest. Wanna know one things that relaxes my soul? Nail painting and thinking of creative ideas to make it look not so meh. Oh, I still feel blah.

That's all. I hate how indecisive and pussy I am when it comes to challenges. Toughen me up, dear God.