This Is An Emo Post

I used to occasionally ask myself, 'When was the last time I cried?' and my answer to that would always be 'I dont remember'. Now why is this? Well, because I never used to cry so often. I would cry only during sad movies or during certain circumstances. But now, I find myself crying all the time and its because of the countless of pressure surrounding me.

Its weird, one minute I can be laughing and smiling then the next I would be all teared up.

If its not about weight issues, its about job applications. They are always asking me to apply here and there , do this and that. I know they mean well and they just wanna help. I appreciate it a lot, I really do but can they just take a step back for a moment and chill? If they dont chill, I dont chill. Then I end up crying. I cry because I can see how potentially screwed up my future is. I dont seem to be interested in so many things. How like that?! The ones that i want, I dont get.

Super. FML!!!

I dunno what to do now therefore I cry. I guess crying it all out can be good in a way. I hope I find my path soon. And I hope that particular company will offer me the job so that all this will end. Amen.