The song that can explain exactly how I'm feeling this very moment.

The Moffatts - Misery

Misery is what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't heal
Misery is what I feel
Is what I feel

but then again.........
another song that describes EXACTLY, very accurately how I am feeling now.

Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know.

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

I can't let him win now -> Yea, we can just ignore this little part. >.<

This sucks!!! Why is it so difficult??
Sometimes I wish he would just come and read and realize its HIM I'm talking about and its HIM thats driving me crazy and its HIM thats causing all this misery, but most of the time, I wanna keep this to myself. =X
I am suffering so much now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME!!

Today, someone asked how I was and I just said..'I'm ok lah. You know, struggling with work and I'm so nervous about tests and all.' And he told me..'Don't forget God, ok?' It really froze me. So all I did was 'No worries, I wont forget Him.'
What he said really ALMOST brought tears to my eyes. It somehow made me realize that since I came to MMU, I never spend as much time with God, such as reading the daily bible passages and praying and also jotting stuff in my prayer journal. Its here with me, sitting on the rack, not being used by its owner. I guess it made me feel a lil guilty and all, after whatever God has given me. Sigh.
Heck, writing this entry is also binging tears to my eyes. sniff sniff.

I'm supposed to be looking at my notes....not this.
Anyway..Thats all.
I finally found the thing that allows me set the time and date of my blog entry. After so damn long. LOL. Blurrrrr~~~~~~~~

sobz sobz..
God....heal this crazy soul of mine >.<