I am feeling very scared at this very moment.
I am so scared and worried about so many things, its piling up on my head and I am going crazy!!!

Fistly, I am worried about my fees and PTPTN application.
I have not received any news from PTPTN about my loan and the last day to pay my fees is on the 20th of April. How?? The student department asked me to contact this person to check if my application has been approved. I tried but she was not in. One of the cause of my heart beating faster. Gahh!!
Why are they so slow in approving this kind of important matter?
Ok, I know its my fault for submiting it ONE friggin day late but how long do they effing need to check?? Annoying!!! If they can settle other people's application in 2 weeks, Why not mine?? Blardi hell!!
Honestly, I am not sure myself if my parents can afford to pay this semester's fees. Damn it!!

Secondly, ASSIGNMENTS!!!
I just realized that we have not started anything on Managerial Statistics assignment. I also checked the due date and it is on the 13th of April. Shit!!So, I asked the lecturer if we were supposed to start the assignment already or are we supposed to wait for some green light or something. You know what she replied?? She said..' Of course start on your own. Its independant.' WTF!!
Right. So we have to be independant. Fine. But, aren't you supposed to check on our progress, or ask what topic are we choosing or give us, at least some guidance? OMG! I almost felt like fainting. Oh, and when she replied, she even waved the assignment paper guidelines at my face. Please lah!!! Who do you think we are? Like we got no other assignments to settle. F!!!!!!
Thank God the assignment is so similar to the one I did in college. I'm so gonna re-use what I did back then. Better start doing this by this week. =(

Another assignment to be nervous about is Financial Accounting. Damn!!
I hate accounts.Anyway, at least we were not supposed to start this YET so I'm quite chilled about it. I read the guidelines already and it looks scary. >.<

English assignment, so far is the best. The lecturer actually check on us every week to see if we're on the right track. If we do something wrong, she'll tell us and make us adjust whatever we have done. See? Thats what I call a good lecturer. Not like some person who only knows how to take MCs and not explain things properly. Arrghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thirdly, MID TERM TESTS!!
Yes...Next week I will have 1 mid term test, which is Financial Accounting.I'm quite relieved because there will be 30 MCQs and 1 problem to solve. THANK GOD!!!!
For MCQ, I can always tembak the ones I dont know, and for the problem question, I actually know how to do, well sort of, so.....its all cool.
A week after accounts, will be friggin Managerial Statistics. According to miss pretty face, formulas will be provided so, THANK GOD AGAIN!!!
But I must double confirm this with my tutor. Only he has some sense in his brains. Quite chilled but not really. Sigh.

Now you see why I have all these fear in me.
I'm so worried until I dont even feel like thinking anymore.
I just feel like jumping into a big hole and never come out.
Whats worst is this is only my 1st semester. How am I supposed to survive another 3 years???? D.I.E!!.

At this moment, I'm supposed to be doing some revision on maths and accounts.
But I ended up blogging whatever I feel. I am feeling damn guilty now. Crap!!

Ok..2 more hours before class so i shall just start doing something now then.
Thats all. Thought of pouring out everything to feel better.
Honestly, I'm NOT feeling better at all. Sigh.

Please pray for me all you kind souls out there. Thank YOU!!