A Rocky Start To A New Beginning

First week of my new job at a publishing place was shit. Maybe I had too high expectations that's why it turned out this way. And I was right all along, when you get a job doing something you "supposedly" love, you wont have a good time. If you work somewhere you have no interest in, you'll have a better time. Life works in a funny way, when it comes to me that is.

First week of work and I started bringing work home. Every day of the week. And the weekend!!! Not because I work slow. Usually, back in my previous work place, I would bring work home only if I am too slow at work and need to get it done. This time, its because of when the boss wants it by. And he wants things within a blink of an eye. He is the one who ask me to finish it up at home. Seriously??

Okay, bringing work home on a weeknight is still alright for me to accept. Its shit but I can accept that. But during the weekend? HELLZ TO THE NO!!!!!! I dont need to rest during the weekend is it? I dont have family and friends to hang out with during the weekend is it? I dont have chores to do during the weekend is it??? Madness. The work load is not even light. I have one thing to do but damn a lot to cover and I am on my own in this. Geez.

I was also asked to drive around KL and Selangor to get restaurant contacts and addresses. Erm...ever heard of the internet? I guess I wont mind looking for restaurants if i had a partner. Two or more than two people doing this is not so bad but on my own?? You have got to be effing kidding me right? So, I just gave out nervous laughter and pretended i didnt hear anything. If I have to do this on my own, I'll just do whatever my instinct tells me to. And that means....oh well, nevermind

I know its my job to do this sorta thing but not my own. I mean, come on, want me to die is it? Yes, I know I am being such a diva.

The people there are not that great either. They mostly keep to themselves and hang out with each other except ME!!! Did i do something wrong??? Dont think so. So, i have no one to hang out with and no one to help me out. Sucks big time. This isnt such a big problem anymore because I got used to it. Dont talk to me, I'll be fine

In the past, I've worked in many many places and to be honest, I didnt enjoy most of it. But I still could tolerate and stayed on until it was time to go. Only one place I worked at that I really could not tahan and resigned after 3 days - Watsons. OMG, that was so so so so so bad. This one, is pretty similar. I dunno how long I can tolerate because its only been a week and I have to bring work home every single day. What more 3 months down the line? I dont wanna end up more anti social than i already am. No way!!!

I can tell that I wont have a bright soaring future because of my fussy ways but like in that Daughtry song, "All that I'm after is a life full of laughter". So what if I dont get a glamour job or whatever? I choose to be happy and satisfied.

Dear God, I learned my lesson and will start to think and analyze properly before I take a step into whatever I'll be stepping in. Thanks.