After so many weeks of keeping this to myself (well...not entirely. I did tell family members and some friends about this), I've decided to story all of you about something shitty I went through and left me in such a foul mood ever since. Foul mood as in...I was PMS-ing almost every single day. I hated myself and hated how it affected me. Most of all, I hated what I've become. The best part, however, is how I managed to cover my real emotions with this smiley mask I had. Not easy.
You see, I had a job offer from this well known company and I got selected right after the interview ended. I was super eksaited because the job description was interesting and its something I would enjoy. Best of all, it was related to my major. Although the pay isnt as much as a normal fresh grad would get, I didnt mind because it was a part time thing and if they liked me enough, I would be "promoted" to a full timer. Besides, its the experience that I'm after.
Unfortunately, they needed me immediately but the current company at the time wanted me to stay longer. I tried to negotiate and asked them to let me go a week earlier but my pleading wasnt kesian enough so in the end, I had to stay and I had let that job opportunity at the well known company fly away just like that.
I was pissed, upset, disappointed and very sad. I know the way I story it here sounds like such a minor thing but because I'm trying to be very vague, so that's why I left out a lot of other information. Anyway, yeah...this was what got me all pissy everyday. When I go to work, I had to hide and put on a smiley face and pretend I'm a-ok.
Because of this, I decided to just end my contract and leave. That's why I'm jobless and enjoying my part time retirement now. Just as I was starting to enjoy it, my parents started nagging about how I should start hunting for jobs. So much for wanting to lepak until November. But then, if I slack longer, I might not even get a job at all so better to grasp whatever I can now.
Wow....that's a whole load of words to read. I'll post a random picture just so you can take a short break. LOL.
A Polaroid shot of Sumeet and I, taken last Thursday when we met up for dinner :)
Ok, continue.
Then, something amazing happened last Friday night that blew away every foul mood I was in. I've been so emo for the past 2 weeks or so. My finale final exam results came out. Since this was my super final semester, I was desperate to do well. I couldnt afford to fail. All I wanted was a pass but I secretly aimed for a B because I wanted a higher CGPA. Yes, I'm not shy to say it. I was a kiasu nerd. LOL.
So, moment of truth came. I clicked on the button that will show me how I did, scrolled down and closed my eyes. Please let it be a pass, please let it be a B, no no....pass also can - was all I had in my mind. As I opened my eyes, there it was. It didnt look like a C or a B. It was a frikkin A-!!!!!!! First reaction? I screamed. Then i laughed....HARD!! hahahaha. See? I'm still laughing now. LMAO. Anyway, I think I frightened my dad who was sitting in front of me.
I said....'Guess what i got for maths..'. His response was...'What? Fail ah?' Tsk tsk. Always so negative. I shouted back...'I GOT A-!!!!!!!!!!!' My mom, who fell asleep in front of the TV, suddenly woke up and clapped for me and went Yay! Then she went back to sleep. Haha. The sister, who came back few minutes later was surprised to see me all smiles. Yeah...thank God for that because it brought back my smile. Oh, did I mention how much I hateeeeeee maths??? And to get an A-? really a miracle :)
I have not fully recovered tho. I can still be in a foul mood depending on whoever who steps on me. Just like what happened in my previous post. sigh.
Actually, I want to give CHEONG HO a big shout out. Why? because he helped me in areas that I was absolutely blur on. And he is in Australia. There was a moment during my revision period that I felt like giving up and even planned to hentam in that chapter if the question comes out in the exam. Lucky enough, I asked for Cheong Ho's help and forced myself to understand what he was typing through MSN. Haha.
Thanks brah!!! If it wasnt for your examples, I would have given up and not answer the question. Luckilly also that question came out in the exam. Phewww!! LOL. So, I owe you :)
Now, I look forward to my convocation. It falls on 31st July thankyouverymuch :)
Next stop? Working world. groans.
Ps: I have a interview on Monday. Will that job be the one? I hope so :)
pps: I need someone to accompany me. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
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