All I Can Do Is Bottle Up My Feelings

What happened on the 8th of January was very saddening, a Black Friday indeed. It changed a lot of people's lives and I think it affected mine. As of now, I'm feeling very insecure. Dont know what happened? Well, you should start doing some reading.

Article #1 and Article #2

The first thing that rushed to my mind when I received the news was fear. I couldn't help but imagine all sorts of shit happening like maybe someone coming up to me, ask if I am a Catholic and shoot me point blank as I answer yes. I believe my faith was being tested as such imaginations filled my head. If such things happened to me, would I proudly say yes and receive whatever consequences or would I be a chickenshit and say no? To be honest, I'm not sure what I would say. Of course I would say yes but will I be ready to be punished innocently? I really dunno.

Then, I started blaming the church for fighting so hard to win the case. I mean, cant they just let it be? We got brains to come up with other words in Malay to describe God right? But then again, as humans, we have the right to fight for what we want. And the church is not in the wrong at all, so I take back my blame. Besides, as stated in the constitutions, we should not discriminate any religion whatsoever.

Just as more fear came haunting me, I realised that I shouldn't be scared. Why should I be when God is constantly by our side, walking with us through all this crap? I know that we are all taken good care of and should trust God that He will always be there for us.

Oh, on another note, karma's a bitch so...yeah.

I guess in conclusion, I am very disappointed, sad and angry that all this is happening, especially when unity and ONE-ness is promoted. There's no reason for people to go around creating havoc. If with such small issue that this can happen, I wonder what will happen when bigger things occur.

Looks like all I can do bottle up my feelings inside because who knows, someone might just sue me. Please lets all pray for peace and unity, Christians or non-Christians alike. We should not walk around with fear and worry.