Why do I feel like as if my dreams are crashing down? Or maybe even shattered? It haven't reached the shattered level tho. Its slowly cracking and soon.....you should know what will happen.
I'm supposed to start my internship in June. I've applied at various companies that are located strategically for my convenience because I don't drive far and have a car. I was also desperate enough to apply at companies that are slightly out of my convenience zone. But sadly, none of the companies replied. No reply to reject me, no reply to tell me I'm being considered, no reply to tell me that they've received my application. No effing reply to tell me anything. At least reply with rejection also I don't mind la. Let me know not to waste my time waiting for a reply.
The only companies who did reply was two quite well-known ones. One replied and said I'm a potential match. They made me do some assessment and then...no sound. One more offered me a place (or so I think) but the department is not related to my major at all, so totally cannot because we must get one that's related. I asked the internship coordinator if I'm allowed to apply for that position but she didnt reply...as well. Wtf!! Cant they just hit 'reply' and say yes or no??
Oh, another also replied but they just asked me to send my resume...again for their consideration. Then, no sound.
Now, what do I mean by my dreams are crashing down? My dream companies, which I soooo want to work at, didn't reply to any of my application. One of them even had a very full mailbox, that's why my email couldn't get through. Seriously, wtf. Clear your damn mailbox la!!!! What's the point of flashing the email address on the website, which is apparently for us to email you any of our queries, when you don't clear it?? Bodoh. Maybe its one reason why I shouldn't work there.
So anyway, since most my dream workplace did not reply, I might have to apply at a company that I had no plans to work in. Its very saddening because I was avoiding that company but since it's listed in the company list that our coordinator gave us, I might have a shot. Damn sad and frustrating!!!
I do have other dream companies that I wanna apply at but...no car, therefore no driving, and therefore, cannot apply. They don't even have an LRT station there. Even worsttttt!!!
Even Blurry Taynee got a job at one famous marketing company, which she's been yapping about and sounded like she wanted to really work there. That made me feel the tension even more. I know I should pray and be patient because God probably has a plan for me but, I'm afraid that the plan will be at somewhere I will be unhappy. I wanna work at a place where it motivates me to go to work, not make me dread going.
That's why la, kinda feeling emo now. I don't want my dreams to come crashing down even before it starts.
Sigh. Advice or recommendations, anyone?
Should I give up? Or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere.
By the way...
R.I.P, Natasha Richardson.
Picture credits to Yahoo search.
I'm still in shock.
If you find her familiar, think Parent Trap and Wild Child. That's all I remember la.
PS: You know you need to cut your nails when you start having so much typos while typing and when the long nails are getting effing annoying. You also know you need a bath when you're feeling bloody hot even when its windy.
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