I had a meeting with my academic counsellor today and boy, it was hell.

Here are the encouraging nasty things he said to me that made me so effing pissed and tears of anger just rolled out like a waterfall.

On the fact that my CGPA is considered very low for a Chinese student.
- "I'm surprised that your CGPA is so low. Usually chinese students get 3 and above. Mostly malays get this low la..but chinese, shouldnt be so low what."
*OMFG!! RACISM!! Like..WTF right? Chinese people cannot get low CGPA ah? And why bring up Malay students in this topic for? Not all chinese are nerds like YOU okay. Bloody hell.*
**Sorry, not meant to hurt any Malays in the process of writing this.**

On the fact that I failed my Managerial Maths.
- "Waa...if you failed maths ah, how are you going to pass Advance statistics? Advance is a step higher you know.."
*Hello? Like I dont effing know this. When he said this, I replied.."But I passed Stats.." and he flatly said.."It was barely a pass.." Arghhhh!! What is he trying to say?*

On the fact that I "blamed" the lecturer for failing Maths.
- "If out of 5 friends and 3 failed, you can say its the lecturer's fault but if only you failed, its definitely your fault. So, can you tell me how many failed?"
*Yes...a whole lot more of other students that I dont even know!!. Come on la, do you even know how this lecturer conducted the class? Do you think that giving effing last minute assignment and having midterms right before finals is NOT the lecturer's fault? Well, in my opinion, damn right it is. Okay, it might be my fault for not knowing how to do and not asking but lecturers DO play an effing role in helping a student pass or causing a student to fail.*

On the fact that my parents know about my fail or not.
- "Does your parents know? They didnt do say anything? Waa....did you know that other parents will scold their child if he/she fails? Good ah your parents. Dont even care if you fail or not. Next time if you fail, they also wont do anything la."
*This is too much you jackass. My parents DO care and they are understanding, not like the typical kiasu parents that are the main cause of their kids committing suicide. How dare you say this about my parents? I mean, I already failed. What can my parents do? Kill me? Its already been done. None of us can turn back time to make sure I pass. The only thing to do is re-take the whole effing subject la. What else to do? Common sense, dude.*

On the fact that I dont even know how many hours a day I study.
- "What do you mean you dont know how many hours a day you study? All my advisees can tell me roughly how many hours and you cant? Something wrong la when you say you dont know."
*This is purely my fault, I admit. I should have just came up with some dumbass answer and say '5 hours a day' or something but I didnt. Why? because when I study, I dont effing calculate how long. As long as I'm done then ok la. At least I am honest. Unlike his other advisees who probably lie their ass off. This is the problem, dont even know how to lie. Hmmm.*

On the fact that I cried in front of him.
- "You cry to me for what? No use! When you start working ah, you think people will layan if you cry ah? No. You must control you feeling. I think you are too sensitive. Am I right? Dont need to answer if you dont want."
*YES, I AM BLOODY SENSITIVE, AND YOUR PROBLEM IS?? Gosh...Well, I didnt exactly say that to him but I told him straight at his face that I am indeed sensitive. Its God's gift to me. How am I supposed to control it. And he thought I was crying because he scolded me. My ass la!! Those were tears of anger and irritance, you jerk."

On the fact that I will be under probation if I continue to not do well.
- "First year only and you get this type of CGPA. Better becareful ah, you can be under probation and be kicked out not only from your course, but from the university."
*Brother pucker!! Yes..thanks a whole lot for the reminder. I'll keep that in mind..-rolls eyes- *

How not to be pissed huh? Academic counsellor? More like academic demotivater. Wanna know why students kill themselves for not doing well? He is the answer.
I mean, you are supposed to motivate you advisees to study harder and try harder next time, not make them feel like shit. @#!$%&*^!!!

Urgh. Totally not a good day.
After this whole '"counselling"" shit, more problems came in. So many problems that I dont even wanna mention it. Then, when this problem was solved, some bitch HAVE to annoy me. Damn bloody rude ah. Who do you think you are?? GO.FLY.KITE!!

ARGHHH!!! My blood pressure is increasing, my blood is boiling and all I want now is to eat!! But I dont have money. Fcuk!!

I'm signing off. Need to study for a midterm I have not even prepared for yet. Gahhhhhhhhhhhh!