Really?

Why is God picking on me? Why?


Am I too naughty?
Did I do something bad to deserve this?
Did I not pray hard enough?
Did I not try hard enough?
Did I not study hard enough?
Was I not desperate enough?
Have Your love for me decreased to a level where You cant even help me?
Was my one and only important prayer not important enough to You?


I guess I am never enough for You, huh.

You promised that we should 'Pray and believe that we have received it.'.
Well, I prayed and believed I received whatever I asked for but You didnt give it to me. How come? What went wrong?

You also mentioned that if I cant do it, You will prove to me that I can do all things. If I am not able, You will be able. If I'm not smart enough, You will give me wisdom.

Question is, where was all these when I needed it?

I read somewhere that when you pray and God says NO, there is actually a valid reason behind it and I understood and respected that.



But in this case? Why did you say 'NO' to my prayer?
I just dont and cant understand.



Well, I guess at the end of the day, it all comes down to...PATIENCE, which is something I am running low on.

I am still waiting for Your 'perfect timing', dear God.