There was a time in my life when I never believed in true/best friends or besties. Maybe because the friends I was always with never treated me like one and some shit happened that made me an anti "true/best friend" sorta person. Oh, no worries, I'm cool with those friends now. I guess, in a way, 'absense makes the heart grow fonder' plays a part la.

Anyway, all these changed when I met the people I currently care about and respect (you know who you all are *smiles*), and they include my new found friends - the fantastic threesome. When I met them, and my other beloved current friends, I stared believing in "true/best friends" again and I felt good. I was assured that they would be there for me when I needed help, and they were indeed there for me. They helped me in my weaknesses and whatever area I needed help in. I was happy to have them.

But recently, they havent really been playing the "true/best friend" role.
They dont seem to be interested in helping me when I desperately need it. All they care is about themselves and only themselves. What about me? I need all the help I can get but I dont seem to be screaming loud enough for them to hear. Is it me or are they too blind to realize it? Sigh. I've always tried my best to help them when they needed it, and I have been helping them. I helped one of them in the assignment, and I was called too kind by another friend of mine. I even helped them edit their work to make sure their work dont sound like shit but what do I get? I get brushed aside when I asked for help. I even suggested a 'Why dont we study together for this subject? I need help la wei.' and all I got was a 'I rather study alone la..'. WTF.
Yes, I understand, I like studying alone too but....I NEED EFFING HELP!!!
Annoying betul.

Its not that I expect something in return whenever I generously provide help but all I ask for is gratitude and appreciation. Maybe when I need help, try helping me or whatever. Wait a minute, is that considered as 'something in return'? Whatever man.

Now that the finals are nearer and my size 0 brains are not functioning well in the calculations area, I seriously need the help I can get. Since I'm not getting any, I have to play the guessing game by guessing how to do all this shitz. Bahhh!!

So, remind me again why I DONT believe in "true/best friends"?



Sorry. Emo Clair landed again..
To those who terasa while reading this, I am sorry. Not meant to hurt my current besties.

Thanks for the memories eventhough they weren't so great.